Fear of failure is a funny thing. Not “ha-ha” funny, but rather an interesting conundrum. It sort of wants to work as a self-fulfilling prophecy. Case in point: I have reached a point in the development of my indie video game that, in order to proceed on the originally projected timeframe, I must seriously consider starting a crowdfunding campaign in order to achieve it. Granted, I could still work on it without the crowdfunding dollars…and I will, if need be…but the time to complete my project will jump from around 6-8 months to what amounts to probably a few more years.
The idea of asking people to contribute to my project scares the ever-living daylights out of me. Mostly because the thought of not collecting enough to meet the minimum amount to succeed will probably feel like, to me anyway, a public manifesto stating their collective lack of faith in my ability to deliver what I promise…which is a fun, entertaining video game. I know the real reasons would vary greatly…lack of expendable cash, the game not being their cup of tea…or any number of other reasons. However, the fear of that failure gnaws at my bones. It says to me…don’t try, you’ll just be disappointed…and humiliated. People will think you are a beggar…that you can’t make it happen on your own. That fear of failure wants to convince me to fail before I even try. It’s a hard feeling to shake.
The reason I am saying this at all publicly is that hopefully the people who might be feeling something similar in their own lives can look at me and see you’re not alone in feeling afraid to fail. It’s ok to feel like that…we’re only human. However, if we give into that fear…failure is an absolute. The only way to succeed is to try. Try your damn hardest! Do it regardless of what you think people may think of you, or what you may think of yourself…because the truth is, sometimes we all need a little help. If you are working hard towards a goal and are willing to put yourself out there to try and rally people to your cause, it’s nothing to be ashamed of. I’m not…neither should you.
The other reason I am saying this is to also get the word out in advance that I will be running the aforementioned crowdfunding campaign and will be making many posts about it in the very near future. If you could look at it and see if it’s something you can get behind, that would be fantastic. If it isn’t, that’s fine too…but if you could help me spread the word to those who may be interested I would be so extremely grateful.
Ok…the word is out. More shameless promotion to follow. 😉
Thanks for your time.